So yesterday I heard this song by Mandy Moore that I absolutely love, I can’t seem to get enough of it… It seems to establish the way I feel and the dream I had last night regarding Zack. He’s said before that we were just the same, but I’m nothing like him. I could never do those things that he has done. And I will be okay, I’m already making progress. And he’s fading away, to nothing that he is. He means nothing to me anymore, he is nothing.

And as for the dream last night, I like to believe that it’s just my way of searching for the truth. The truth I’ll never know, but I can live with that now. I’ll be okay with that. He can try to hide the evidence of what he did, but soon it will come back to him. I forgive him for what he did and for hiding it, or at least I’m trying to. But it doesn’t change what he did. Maybe one day he’ll find the peace that I’m searching to find. For me, forgiveness is the gateway to that peacefulness. I’m trying really hard to forgive him, I don’t want to walk around harboring hate and anger towards him anymore. And I wont! I’ve let it go, and now I’m in the process of forgiveness.

So anyways, this song just to me, just sums up the way I’ve been thinking and feeling. It’s got a great beat, and the lyrics are meaningful to me. I love it. So I thought I’d share it with you.

Song: Nothing That You Are

Artist: Mandy Moore

Album: Wild Hope