Okay, so I’ve been thinking. And here’s what’s on my mind…..

I know I only have myself to blame for things being the way they are with Dale. And by that I mean, I am the one who got to know him and let him into my life all those years ago when I was about to get married. I shouldn’t have done that, I wanted a friendship with him, and instead it quickly became more. And that is my biggest mistake. And then last January when hubby and I began having problems I turned to Dale. Not sexually (incase any one was thinking that) but emotionally.. I shared my problems with him, thinking that he cared and that he was my friend. But he used me, over and over again, and I let him. That too was my mistake. I shouldn’t have found myself confiding in him, and I shouldn’t have kept letting him back into my life.

But those were mistakes, and I’ve learned from those. I’m not falling for his *concern* again. I don’t need it, the only thing Dale is ever been concerned about is himself and what he can get. And here’s the thing I can’t figure out, he’s supposed to have a girlfriend, so what does he want with me? Krissy, my friend, thinks that he broke up with his gf and maybe he did. But why me? I know I’ve made mistakes in the past, but he’s the one who raped my friend, and he knows how I feel about him because of that. So why bother me? Why now? I know I made mistakes, but none of my mistakes are to blame for him using me and raping my friend, or to do this shit to me again. My biggest mistake, thinking I could ever trust him……&helli p;